Today I am sick of being this way. As I tried on shirt after shirt this morning I realized that some of them had fit me a year ago. I hate that I've put on more and more weight. It needs to stop! A few times today I caught glimpses of my reflection in either glass doors or large mirrors, and I didn't even recognize myself. I'm so much larger than what I picture I look like in my mind. I want to change so badly.
To start changing I've started this blog, to keep track of what I'm doing and to go back and see where I need to improve and where I can commend myself. I've been debating about what to include in my daily blogs. I know each week I will update my weight. But I'm not sure what other information I want to put here. I was thinking of taking a picture of me in that bikini I mentioned earlier, and putting up a new shot each month until I hit my goal weight. I'm also trying to decide whether to log my food and exercise on here or just give the daily totals.
I will be logging everything I eat for at least the first 2 months in a food journal I bought. I think it will take at least that long for my body to adjust hunger levels and know when it's full. The great thing about blogging it, is that no one I know has any idea that this blog exists. I've set everything up anonymously so unless your some hacker type, you don't know who I am. This gives me a wonderful freedom to be 100% truthful in what I put on here.
Tomorrow I begin, and I'm already nervous. I really really don't want to fail this time. By nature I'm determined in almost everything I do. With the exception of weight loss I've succeeded in so many different aspects of my life. So now it's time, my life is in a great place right now, and it's time for me to go forward. It is time I start treating my body respectfully and with love and care. It's time.